did i? did i?

i have a problem.
and now i don't know how long before it goes away.
how many consequenses and worries and regrets need to be experienced before its gone? because i'm scared.
i don't mean too. i never did. sometimes things just get carried away.... and before you know it, you've fallen back down

but i actually don't know if there is such thing as learning on your own. though you may want and wish for that release and for them to let you do it your own way....
in the end, maybe its just for the best?
though its incredibly hard to think that right now.
so as i sit here, all puffy eyed and in the i-take-it-all-back mood
i know, i can't take it back