mooding through the first days

it has been too long and has become old and stale. how much longer of this is there to take?
the questioning
the regretting
and then wishing
sometimes you just have to do what you want, even though you perhaps shouldn't.
but how do you know when those times are? because you can't keep wondering if you did the right thing or not.

i'm tired, and i don't think its just because of the lack of sleep.